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If you are familiar with my stories, my very first post "Who is MissBranNew?" I recapped a conversation a friend and I was having one morning about my ill-feelings of my job. I had expressed some very strong and not so good words about how badly things were going for me at work. During that talk, my friend had asked me a life changing question (well to me a life changing question..lol) that prompted me to take a deep look into myself and ask some serious questions. As I begin to dig deep into my soul searching I had to ask myself several things like: "What did I want out of my employer; Who was I?; What could I bring to the table professionally?; and Where did I see my professional future going?." I ended the post that I would contribute the steps on how I was going achieve finding those answers.
Just to give you guys a little backstory...I have been with the same company for a number of years and I developed the mindset of going to work as just a job...sad but just keeping it funky...Work was just a place that helped paid the enormous amount of bills I have. I felt that over the course of the years I had been coasting aimlessly with no real concrete plans on my professionally growth. Toward the middle of 2012, I was promoted to a new department, which I was geeked about. After being in one position for four years, a change was long overdue. A couple months into 2013 , I started having major issues with learning the processes and grasping the new knowledge that was being thrown my way. On top of that, dealing with those issues, I had learned I was pregnant...so one can only imagine the type of emotions I was dealing with that year.
Fast forward to now...
I wish I could tell you guys that after that initial post I had developed a newfound attitude towards my job but sadly things went from bad to worse. Everything that could go wrong went there. My performance wasn't getting any better, I was messing up left and right, and my attitude was becoming not so professional. I was going to work with so much negativity that it was bad on soooo many levels. My frustrations about my performance and not understanding the work started to control everything around me. Every morning I'd wake up and pray for a better day, but nothing changed. I had prayed that these feelings was just a phase. I prayed they would magically disappear and everything will be okay. I dreaded going to work...I mean dreaded it. If anyone asked me "How I was doing?" I would give the driest answer ever. Eventually my feelings intensified to a high point of frustration that transitioned to hate, then to overall "I don't care." I wanted to avoid getting to that point because I knew once I got to that non-chalant feeling it was a wrap. If that wasn't enough my manager noticed this attitude which couldn't be good.
My issues with work became a constant topic of conversation with my friends and family too. My auntie always got an earful..smh. She would listen ever so quietly then when it seemed like when the coast was clear of my bitching and moaning, she would give me her point of view and honest advice. Her advice was mostly on point and knowledgeable but one key advice she gave me, that stood out the most was to seek out a mentor. She felt that a little guidance from a senior leader would be a awesome opportunity to shift my horrible attitude. At first, I quickly shut the idea down. At that time, I felt all hope was lost and there was nothing that could change. Not gonna lie I thought it was a pointless idea. See, I told you that frustration had me all types of crazy...smh.
I mulled over her advice and seeked other's in leadership roles that I knew for additional advice. Again, I prayed on what I should do. One day at work I received an email from an organization I am member of about an upcoming mentoringship program. Now I like to think that was God giving me a sign. The question was I going to take heed to it?Mentally, I went back and forth with myself about sending the application. To be honest, I was secretly talking myself out of it. This program required me to meet someone who I never met (which freaked me out), and talk about my professional goals (which I had no clue about). After my mental deliberation I submitted my application.
I mulled over her advice and seeked other's in leadership roles that I knew for additional advice. Again, I prayed on what I should do. One day at work I received an email from an organization I am member of about an upcoming mentoringship program. Now I like to think that was God giving me a sign. The question was I going to take heed to it?Mentally, I went back and forth with myself about sending the application. To be honest, I was secretly talking myself out of it. This program required me to meet someone who I never met (which freaked me out), and talk about my professional goals (which I had no clue about). After my mental deliberation I submitted my application.
A few weeks later I received an email that I was paired with a mentor. A kick off event to start off the years mentorship was to follow and that was where I would meet my mentor. I was super nervous when I introduced myself to my mentor. Overall it was awesome meeting and I left the event on cloud nine. I was very excited on what was to come. Since that event I have met my mentor and we are in the planning stages of developing my career goals.
Meeting my mentor created my Embracing Change moment because with everything that I've told you guys about work I am proud of myself for making the first step to change. Had this been a few years ago, I would have let my circumstances affect my growth. Despite every challenge and learning obstacle I faced I made the decision to break down the negativity barrier. I have a new pep in my step and new attitude when I go into work which makes me so excited as to what is in store for my future!
I hope this story gives you guys a little motivation to remember that no matter the situation is to never let that determine your success. So until next time I'll talk to you soon.
-MissBranNew
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